Lost in a sea of hate

Well.. I don't know what to say. So many things are going through my head right now that they won't come out on paper very well. I really just want to pretend that I am sick and lay in my bed and cry. I wish God could reply to texts and tell me what to do and why I feel this way. I'm so lost. I can't give up but what choice is left...? This world is tearing me down into a million pieces. Picking at every little thing that is an imperfection. I'm weak and everyday I'm getting weaker mentally. I don't know what to do anymore.